So my friend politely tried to tell me the other day that I have an alpha male personality, he wasn’t being mean about it or even saying it was a bad thing, but that is how I act. For the most part I imagine he is true and this is also why some people think I am an asshole, I tend to say what I think, question what I am told, and never let anyone make me do something I don’t want too. Now as I get older I try harder and harder to take into account what other people want, how they see me and try to see things from their perspective and better myself as a person who mingles with other people. I am also doing my best to show my appreciation to my friends, time will tell if I succeed.
The funny part of this story isn’t that I act like this, it’s that up until I was about 23 I was more the sidekick personality. I had friends who I hung around who constantly degraded me, not to be mean but because that’s what they did. I was the kid who did wacky stupid things and wouldn’t question what people told me, I just did it. Once my “friend” told me I shouldn’t run to lose weight, it would just make me fat my stretching out the fat as I ran…obviously that’s pretty stupid, but at the time I considered this fact. I did lots of really stupid things because my friends told me to do it and they all gave me their approval for being stupid. What ever my friends told me I thought was true, because they wouldn’t lie right?
Looking back, I am not sure what their motive was, they were probably just being young and stupid, I do not think they had malicious intent and hold no hard feelings to them. I no longer even know those friends, even though most of them had been my friends at a very early age. And it’s not like I shunned them from my life, we all just seemed to go seperate ways.
So I find it amusing and a little sad that I have almost no personality traits of myself when I was younger, and I hope that I treat my friends a lot better then I was treated even if I do come off as an asshole or “alpha male” because I measure my success on if I am a good friend, husband and father.